This is a performance by Mulemvo Nianda at the Rock Church in San Diego, CA. The open mic event was for a program called “Never Knew A Father’s Love.” Please like, share, poll, and comment.
So in thinking about the word forgiveness…. I thought about how, at the end of the day, forgiveness is really about the person forgiving. Making amends. Creating a means of communication through the sacrificing of oneself in order to create peace among beings.
Its starts within YOU FIRST….. FORGIVE YOURSELF FIRST for all wrong doings in your life no matter when or where they came from, they will reoccur in your present being…..
Life is a cycle. It just goes, and goes, and goes. And in going things happen good and bad, but life, just goes, and goes, and goes. Decisions are made that vary in scale that cause harm and pain, or glory and success….. but life goes…..
And in going, we encounter MISTAKES, or HURTS, and PAINS that we just go through, even though life is going, these things are bound to happen. A lot of times no matter how, what, or who started the hurt we blame or second guess or question ourselves for things that started, then led up to, then caused the hurt, or mistake, or pain that you felt.
We hold on to it.
Even though we nod, or say “Its ok…” or say we’re over it….
As you think that life has passed over that hurt, or mistake, or pain… and its all good….
That pain, or mistake, or hurt will come back again. And with unforgiveness on your heart that mistake, or pain, or hurt can DESTROY YOU!!
To the point where you’re willing to accept a an idea of yourself that REALLY ISN’T YOU!!!
To the point where we’re sitting in jail, wasting or knowledge, our passions and intelligence away!
To the point where we’re willing to kill, steal, lie, cheat, destroy, maim, degrade, defeat, ourselves and one another!
To the point where we’re willing to create and tear apart FUTURES by using our CHILDREN AS SACRIFICIAL LAMBS to our emotional strongholds.
To the point where people, whom at one point emotionally connected at love, can only come together now in hate.
We hold unforgiveness to the point where it destroys us. When all we really have to do is forgive ourselves.
It’s bothered me…
For a time I’ve been angered, but more in a way to fuel understanding. To understand the world around me. To understand our places, my place, our races places in it.
Have you ever wondered how that word came to be? How it came to describe the color of skin or a consistent mental state of inferiority? What are we racing toward? Race implies a competition. A winner. A finish that needs to be attained.
But what is it that we’re racing towards?
Race is a man made social structure that has separated us from our Creator. And we will continue to walk our Creator’s land that he has given to us to grow, to be one with Him, to duplicate, to live, to survive, to love, to strive, in royalty, and knowledge, and discipleship, and brotherhood…… Earth was given to us to do these things with it, in it, and for it, but we will continue to be LOST in it, if we continue to race against it….
We, I mean us as Black, or African, or African-American, or Original Asiatic people, have lost our origins. And we’ve allowed ourselves to be captivated by the preoccupation with POWER that Europeans have shown us since their beginning.
To the point where we have learned to hate one another. Learned to kill one another. Learn that money is everything. Learned that The job that you have to work that isn’t what you love but you have to keep because it’s the only way you will have a roof over you and your family, but it’s eating at you everyday, killing you everyday, stressing you everyday…..
We’re lost to the point where we keep ASKING the government to help us, but then turning around and giving their money back to them, or Asians, or Arabs, or any other people BUT OR OWN because we OWN NOTHING.
We’re lost to the point where all people have been relegated to a posture of submission to any white man since the beginning of of our contact with Europeans… or face DEATH. And nothing has changed, despite our strongest objections.
We’re lost to the point where we “bang on” each other about who has the best pastor….. or sheik….. or priest….. thinking that where you worship is more important than your personal relationship with our Creator.
We’ve lost that. And in losing that, we’re allowing the destruction of ourselves. That silent inner pain that exists in your heart when you think about your personal situation, gets overcome by that hope, that peace, that everything is going to be OK. And you can breathe again.
We will breathe again.
We always find a way to breathe again.
We just have to wake up and find ourselves.
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